May 2012
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I would like to take this opportunity to issue an apology to anyone who has been offended by any comments made in this blog.
It has been written from a ‘personal diary’ point of view and has been written for me, to look back on my own life when I am older. It has been a means of expression during this difficult period in my life.
It was never my intention for it to be used as a...
I don’t know what you want from me, nor I from you. There is a force that pulls me towards you against my will and I think you to I although I don’t know if you can see it the same way I can. Even now when we are so far away you are still as close as ever in my mind, closer if anything.
I want to scream. It frustrates me and annoys me. It makes me so angry. And you so nonchalant...
Longford used to be so far away, now its just another stop on the trainline. Sarah and Clare came to town with me. Sarah was going to Cartron to meet Gifty who disappeared in last nights drama, Clare was going to the Cathedral to meet her uncle who was bringing her home. I told Ronnie it will not be long before I am back. This is not goodbye for summer. The guy in the train station let me buy a...
Packing up B.ed 2. It’s been some year. The heat is out of this world and the hangover is moderate. Where has the year gone?
I don’t know where I keep all this stuff but theres alot more than I’d estimated! Next time I write will be from laois. I will never sleep in this bed again.
Emotional.
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I think that love is possibly the most difficult thing that we will ever do.
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“The joys and the hopes, the griefs and the anxieties, of the men of this age,...”
– - Gaudium Et Spes
Four down and two to go.
It is sunday afternoon and I am well rested after a weekend in Sligo, my first weekend here since graduation weekend in November! Time has really flown by…
There was a feeling of excitement immediately following friday’s understanding education exam. 4.30pm we rushed out of the hall eager for our mini break to begin. A two hour exam with three questions to be answered, Kim said that...
We are not well.
This generation, we are not well.
I can no longer define what ‘normal’ is in relation to the people I call my friends, my peers. Socialisation dictated to me when I was very young that ‘we are all unique’ and ‘everyone is different’ and ‘there is no-one quite like you, you are special’.
You are all special yes, but you are all so incredibly...
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I need you to give me something to believe in.
Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars beneath my feet. Remember rights that I did wrong, so here I go. Hello, hello. There is no place I cannot go. My mind is muddy but my heart is heavy. Does it show? I lose the track that loses me, so here I go.
I’m back in the library for round two.
Today went well I think. I cried when writing my ‘personal input’ into my Death and Resurrection question. The idea of Death and Resurrection in the here and now means alot to me because I feel I have seen it first hand in my own life.
I wrote about my dad and the ‘Death’ he must have felt at the time of his separation from my...
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sub·jec·tive
[suhb-jek-tiv]
adjective
1.
existing in the mind; belonging to the thinking subject ratherthan to the object of thought ( opposed to objective).
“There is no longer Jew or Greek, there is no longer Slave or Free, there is no...”
– Gal 3:28
It was actually Mark Twain I think. Simply reading Lolita at long last would be a better use of my time.
I have been having the oddest of dreams. More recent have involved an enlarged photograph of my eyes and your parents approving comments. Although I have never met them and it is approval to something non-existant.
I suppress my own feelings because to say the words aloud, even in my own...
Sparkadia - Talking Like I'm Falling Downstairs
Tongue – tied Talking to my feet When there’s nothing better than self-defeat I stop – stall Try to stand tall When whatever I say means nothing at all
I walk Through all the steps (in my head) It made more sense (in my head) Plain and simple I can’t keep climbing…
I try to find the words but they won’t surrender So I lie to you and say that I don’t remember…
Singing like a hurricane Dancing...
Exams.
Exams again. I have six and they go a little bit like this…
Beginning Monday afternoon I have Contemporary Christological Perspectives. All of my exams are evening ones this year going on from 2.30-5.30 or there abouts. Kind of annoying because I like to get them overwith in the mornings to forget the stuff by end of lunch and start afresh for the next day. But sure…
Yeah...
I have an idea for the green campus committee that we are going to get green hoodies with ‘Be seen to be green’ on the back. It will be the club to be a part of :)
We had our first official meeting tuesday as a working lunch. I am official president now.
Also, I am going to be IFHE president next year for the college. This is going to look really good for future career prospects. I...
I leave my curtains open a little bit so that I wake up naturally when it gets bright. It’s a new thing i’m trying and its working well.
I had a dream last night about Fr Jason. We were on the street and he turned towards me and smiled. He beckoned me to come towards him. He was wearing his usual cords and off-black jumper. He looked different than ever before and I realised why this...
“Intelligence is the ability to carry on abstract thinking”
– Terman, 1921
“Wake up, by your side someone else is sleeping
So I guess my emptiness is never...”
– Hurt Me - Sparkadia
Tonight at midnight I am going to the beach with Aoife, Cillian and Laura. We are going to drink vodka and toast marshmallows. I can’t wait!
Can somebody please tell me the right answers
to every question.
I want to dance in the moonlight,
not to spin in circles inside my own head,
round and round
with no end.
Come and whisk me off my feet
take me dancing
tell me everything is going to be okay.
And I will believe you
but maybe I shouldn’t.
Let's talk about the future...
No. Why should we? Why do we always have to talk about the future? Why do we always want to be there and never just be here?
Eoghan blogged about a five year plan. This is just one small thing in a long string of recent conversations, thoughts, blog posts etc that have the word FUTURE all over them.
Sometimes I like thinking about the future because its where my dreams live. I dream of...
Wining and dining. Tonight I went to Bistro Bianconi (again)… I wore anita’s salmon coloured sheer blouse as I am running low on clothes to wear out for meals this week (#middleclassproblems).
I sat across from Sr Mary and spent three hours discussing the sharp aftertaste of chardonnay in comparison to a good sauvignon blanc, small southern greek islands and mocking today’s...
There’s this film called ‘Pay it forward’ that we watch at Meitheal on the projector screen thing. In the film theres a little boy and he prays for a good deed for his mom and then whenever something good happens to you ya have to pay back the universe by doing a good deed for someone else, then it is their turn, and it goes on and on….
Just thinking about it. About what a...
short-love-with-a-long-divorce:
‘Hearts A Mess’...
Today I need to prepare everything for a presentation I have tomorrow morning on the Introduction to Catholic Sacramental Tradition. Oh God.
I had a lie in. Its 10.10am and I am sitting up in my bed rocking out to the editors with my window wide open to let in the morning air. I have just two hours of social studies, then mass for preparation for exams, then im hitting the library until 5.30pm to...
Reflective Tuesday.
I have been thinking about this since last tuesday actually, about what it would be to be co-dependent. The differences between independence, dependence and interdependence that I have always considered stages within life and within relationships but to imagine choosing to share a dependence on one another, not because you need it like all of the others. Sometimes we need to depend on someone to...