I needed to go out tonight. I cannot explain it, it is a need for escape from reality and cravings for an ice cold vodka and redbull, house music and letting go.
So this is what I did. I pieced together my assignment, I threw on my pumps and I hit pure like I was born to dance. I threw my hands up in the air and did not let go of the freedom it gave to me. I became immersed in the repetition of steve aoki. Loud and brilliant but presenting me with a peace. Perhaps I did drink one to many Jager-bombs but I am young so that is acceptable.
It is monday, well almost tuesday at this stage. I am just home and devouring my chicken fillet roll. I did need this.
There are two fourth year students from a small town in sligo shadowing me for the week as part of their LCVP programme. It is incredibly cute and we had fun today reflecting deeply in religion and burning fabrics in textile science.
Today I saw chris for the fourth time. We were silent for a few moments and it felt as though she was looking deep into my soul. I want her to be able to help me but her belief is that I need to help myself.
We talked today about my brother and his relationships thus far. We talked of my need for appreciation and care from the public because I dont get this from home.
I want to win the religion award when I leave here.
The weekend was beautiful. Myself and anita and amee spent it with the graduates reminiscing. I will miss them terribly.
I need to write more but my bed is calling loudly.
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