On the bus to Dublin (again). I feel like I spend so much time travelling back and forth to Sligo. My body and mind now assume travel time to be sleep time out of habit and I find myself yawning and dozing off dispite the unreal sleep I had last night. I cleaned my room properly, finished my packing and Amee stayed and let me be baby spoon as always :). Things feel a little strange lately. Kim said it last night that she felt college to be wierd in a way she could not describe.. It was as if she were my subconscious talking. I can’t quite put my finger in it, its as if nothing is wrong but everything is wrong and you can’t fix it because there’s nothing to fix. My year have become so bitchy in comparison to others, we have also become ‘standard pushers’ and dispite including myself in the catagory of ‘standard pushers’ I would also describe myself as more apathetic about my course than ever. I have little motivation to attend lectures. I have become more opinionated and questioning about the reasons why we do the things we do here and I am blaming Vince for making me this person. The students union is strange. My friends are strange. I don’t know whether to go as far as to say different. I suppose its always going to be more difficult living with people. I am fairly easygoing and like to avoid drama for the easy life but other people not so much. There’s a lot of hypocrisy in Christianity nowadays. I know you are thinking ‘no duh?’ but I’m seeing it constantly on a small scale in my daily life. Right now this bus is taking me to miss Fenlon with whom I shall be travelling to Germany with tomorrow to visit Leanne for three nights. I am so excited, not to go for the shopping or the sights or the culture but to see my friends and spend real quality time. Okay and the culture etc too a little bit :) Getting away is such a breath of fresh air and an escape I need so badly. I think the struggle I am going through at the moment is me truly finding myself.. I look forward now to seeing how Danielle is finding herself in Dublin, and Leanne is finding herself in Berlin
